Confusion

I've not written on here for quite some time, but as we all know I make rubbish decisions. It's difficult knowing what you need to do but knowing that you don't want to. I spent years of my life telling myself that I don't want a relationship, that I'm content with being alone. However, finding someone that you just feel right with can easily change that. I guess you can say that's what I've done. It's just a shame he probably doesn't feel the same. I guess I should bring you up to date- basically the guy from before asked for me back (long story short said he missed me, I was horny and voila) the first couple of weeks were perfect, or so it seemed for myself? Maybe it wasn't the same for him. I don't think I'll ever truly know, then now it's as if he's having regrets? Feeling as though it's unfortunate we're together. Making plans with others and myself on the same day at the same time. I guess we will see who he chooses aye? I can't be second choice as much as it upsets me, he isn't allowed to drag me back into his web just to hurt me again. Bleugh